I Made A Mistake. Opps…

Who here has experienced getting sick in some fashion after some form of shadow work/release work?

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*raises her hand*

This happens to me quite often. I have a few thoughts as to why but the main conclusion I have to is, It is my body’s way of getting rid of the shit. A physical symptom of my inability to release the emotional and mental toxins I have carried over the years.

I have recently experienced this in a huge way. I am in the process of recovering from a kidney stone. The stone was approximately the size of Mt. Baker here in the PNW. LOL! It took a minor surgery to remove about three weeks ago.

Leading up to the surgery I had time to do some deep thinking. I was curious as to why I had become afflicted with this in the first place. I knew that I had been doing some pretty big shadow diving recently…but never expected something like this to affect my body. It was quite ridiculous really. I thought I had been good about letting go of the old skins I was throwing away. I had been conscious about how I was feeling each step of the way.

I was enjoying the new found freedom I felt. The lightness of being a few steps closer to who I truly am as an individual. I am still revelling in this feeling…it is wondrous.

There was a problem though. I did not make time for proper releasing work. Big mistake!

Kids, when doing shadow work…ALWAYS make time for proper releasing of your crap. If you do not, the universe will force it and it may not be in a way you will enjoy. 😉 Like in my situation…I got majorly sick and was in serious pain.

*disclaimer here…I am not saying that every cold or illness one might endure is caused by lack of letting go of one’s shit. This is but my personal experience.*

I should have had a personal ritual. I should have had a heart to heart with my Matron Deities. I should have had a talk with myself! I should have. I should have. I should have.

Well, I didn’t.

Lesson learned right?

Another thought I have had on this was, Some of the shit I was letting go of was pretty heavy and ran deep. These items of contention within me had been around since I was a young teen. I came to a point where I did not want to be closeted anymore. I was not going to be hidden. I was not going to be under the thumb of my programming anymore. It was a shock to my system. Mentally, emotionally and physically. I allowed the change to take place…and part of that was my body forcing the BS out in a physical way. Crazy right? Sometimes it needs to happen for us to transform into what we are meant to be. There is always pain and discomfort in the process. I just happened to get a real pain the kidney. LMAO!

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So here I am. After it all. It has been wonderful and scary. But fear will not take me, and cannot take you, unless we let it.

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The sun shines.

Removing the clouds.

Dead skin drying in the heat.

Crackling and flaking.

Blowing away in the breeze.

Shiny new skin.

I feel a bit sparkly.

I think I’ll just lay in this sun

and relax for a while.

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Brightest blessings!

Bree

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Weekly Reading for Dec 10-16th.

Holy Cow Guys! The year is coming to an end very shortly. How quickly this year has gone. How eventful it has been! I am looking forward to the next few weeks. Yule is quickly upon us and I plan to have a personal ritual for that occasion. I believe I will write a blog about that and talk about what Yule means to me and how I acknowledge that day.

Today I have for you our regular reading. I am using the Chakra Wisdom Oracle cards this week. They are bright, beautiful and lots of fun to use. They also get the heart of matters gently but firmly.

Let us look at the cards I pulled.

We have Joy, Discovery, and Creation.

What a lovely combination. No matter what order one would put these in we would still get a great message.

The first card pulled was Joy.

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As you can see she is dancing and has energy flowing all around her. She is inspired and exploding with thought and ideas. Her eyes are closed. She is looking inward. This tells us her happiness and excitement is coming from her, not someone or something else. I believe this is key right now. Concentrate on your own energies at this time. The magic is with you and you direct it. That power is Your’s Babe, keep that in the forefront of your mind. Using your Body, Mind, and Heart you will see so much more as you close your eyes and let judgment and other people’s opinions die away. Cast your own spells and discover what comes next.

The second card is Discovery!

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The magic that comes from our joyful living is grounding. It brings us to our core. Our true selves. Our purest hearts are revealed in our rooted positions. We see who we uniquely are when we are in a state of joy. Focused growth towards what keeps us in that state is the goal this week. When you see your focus going off course…tighten those sails.

And our third card for this week is Creation.

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This card is so appropriate because we have been talking about it the whole time, haven’t we? We have the power within to create. Women literally create life from their bodies. Men, you have the power of creation in you as well. We all have the building blocks of life sealed inside us. It is up to us to use that energy that is given us to make magic happen. Now I’m not talking about making babies…though if that is your goal, awesome. 😀 What I am talking about is the potential of using that life energy to make our living what we want it to be. Our minds, spirits and desires when used with joy, focus and pure intent will manifest incredible amounts of magic in our lives.

Life truly is all that you make it. I know that is an old clique…but it is a truth. 🙂 Go forth and be the incredible, magical people that you are.

Much love,

Bree

December Carotscopes! Happy Holidays Everyone!

Hello Lovely Readers. December is upon us. Wow right! 2017 has been huge for me, so much change…but I’ll go into that in my next blog post. How about you guys? How has 2017 been for you? I hope it has been a positive one. 

Yesterday I worked on the Cartoscopes. And here they are! As always…these are meant to be short and sweet messages for each Astrological sign. Some will be longer than others. Please make sure to check out your Moon and Ascendant signs as well, for more guidance from Spirit.

I wish you all a wonderful December!

Bree

Aries: Ten Of Wands

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Endings. Beginnings. The cycle of life. That is what this existence is all about. We are but tinder burning away. To what purpose is the question. Are we spinning our wheels so to speak…or are we actually going somewhere. Directing our energies with purpose is the key to seeing our needs/wants/goals come to life. We all get to crossroads and need to make a decision. What are we going to choose? Comfort or discomfort?

Remember that comfort is not always the way to go. Sitting in our comfortable bubbles is nice but gets us nowhere. Embrace the discomfort. Seek out the scary and vulnerable moments. Take them in and use them to fuel your life. The terrain might get rocky. Don’t let that discourage you. The bruises we endure along this life are there to remind us of what we truly seek.

 

Taurus: King Of Cups

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Eat, drink and be merry! You have everything you need right in your hands. Why are you questioning its existence?

The doubt you are feeling is your own self-consciousness. Stop looking for issues where there are not any. When you feel the urge to project, stop for a moment. Reassess what you are thinking. Open communication and expression of how you are feeling is important to seeking out the truth of matters. Asking for reassurance is never a bad thing. We all need to hear the words we crave.

The truth is… Right there in your possession. The love, respect, and support you need is already given to you.

Now is the time to give to others. You have the abundant heart to give. Celebrate it!

Gemini: Queen Of Pentacles

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How does your heart beat? Where does your spirit reside? If you are feeling a bit lost lately in the hustle and bustle of life…its time to slow down. This is a timely message for you as the holidays are upon us. Connecting with loved ones over the next little while will be good for you. Being with those in your family that came before you will lend you perspective. Make a point of having a few heart to hearts with family and friends.

Also, Take time for yourself. Connect with yourself. Listen to that heartbeat. See where you have been neglectful of yourself. Work on repairing that relationship with your spirit. We only know ourselves when we take time to be with ourselves. Richness comes from knowing who we truly and purely are.

Cancer: Four Of Pentacles

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Time to watch those dollars! This time of year can be devastating to our pocketbooks. Don’t be afraid to be conservative with your funds. There are so many other ways to give gifts then rushing around consumerist meccas. More meaningful is the gift of yourself. Of creating moments and memories. This sounds hokey…but bare with me! It is true I swear. Spending time, not money, is of more worth than any store-bought gift.

So open up that idea box and get creative! Start now to think of ways to make those moments with your friends and family truly special and fun.

Leo: The High Priestess

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Within you rages power. Power you have not tapped yet. You are solid like rock yet free like the wind. There is no holding you back, so proceed.

Proceed with the knowledge that you make shit happen. No amount of patriarchal bullshit can keep you from doing your business. You write the rules for your life…not other people. Make the rules as you go if you need to. If anyone has a problem with that, tell them the door is over in the other direction.

No negativity or conflicting energies need be tolerated.

Virgo: Seven Of Wands

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Are trolls invading your sacred space? Do you see the pikes coming at you and feel fear? The fear of being torn down when you feel like your progressing so nicely is intense. It can be overwhelming. You may feel like you are defenseless and that these trolls have better weapons then you. Well, you don’t need to have fancy weaponry. Peaceful defense is all that is needed. Stand firm and confident in your position. Know that your intellect, creative work and anything else is what you are making it. The opinions of others don’t carry any weight unless you let them.

Now let us turn this around…What if the troll is you? Are you sabotaging yourself? You might not even realize you’re doing it. Take a look and see if that is indeed the truth. What does your personal self-talk sound like? If it sounds like your attacking yourself, then that is something you will need to work on. Some meditation that promotes a loving mindset may in order. However you go about becoming your best supporter…know that you are worthy of success.

Libra: Ace Of Wands

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Shed the chaff and burn it! There is no need for you to be holding on to the foliage that is not serving a purpose. No need for fluff or circumstance, just pure inspiration, and passion. Feeling a little indecisive? Go with what feels best. Allow your soul to lead you. Passion is the love child of creation…go with it!

Scorpio: The Lovers

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The Masculine and Feminine are the loving parents of our inner child. The tenderness and connection between our two halves create a safe haven. When we are in balance love and support for ourselves is natural and comes easily. This allows our inner selves to grow, heal and be free of any past trauma. It is a process, it is work, but as we live consciously it will become easier bringing that balance back when we feel off.

So how can we achieve this balance? Through small loving acts directed at ourselves. Saying no when yes would cause us to sacrifice just a bit too much of ourselves. Creating boundaries that ensure us a safe space to live within. A simple bubble bath with a glass of wine might do the trick. It does not matter what the loving acts are…it is the act itself. Making sure you feel loved by you is a wonderful feeling.

Sagittarius: Cernunnos (The Devil)

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The great stag has made his presence known. He is here to tempt you into all sorts of lovely and delicious activities. Let him.

Go and be free. Feel with abandon and do those things you have always wanted to. Seek pleasure in all its forms. Do not limit yourself.

Capricorn: Ace Of Cups

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Emotional struggle is part of life. This is natural and as it should be. The gift we are given though is one of resiliency. As we allow our feeling to flow and refresh we see the magic in them. They give us direction and wisdom. Which stream, river or ocean do you choose? Dip your toes in them all and see what happens. Experiment and be courageous in your choices. You will be surprised at the wondrous experiences you can have.

Aquarius: King of Swords.

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Deep thinking and strategizing can be dirty work. You know what you need though. You have already thought through all the possibilities. Now is time to do the work and see the outcome. You may be hesitating out of a feeling of uncertainty…Take action anyway.

Pisces: The Star

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Like a lot of people…maybe your emotions are in a flutter right now. December is upon us and that can cause some inner turmoil. What do I cook to take to aunt so and so’s party? What do I buy for whom? And so on. During this month take time for retreat. Social media breaks, a parents day away from the kids, a romantic dinner with your lover…and anything else you might think of. There are so many expectations put on this time of year that it can end up creating an atmosphere of stress and depression. Make it your mission to counter that with enjoyable recreation and relaxation.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dealing With Toxic Relationships.

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Hello Dear Readers.

If you have been reading some of my past Blogs…you will know a little something about my family. Today I wanted to talk about toxic relationships with our parents.

Before I go forward in this blog I will give a disclaimer. I do not come on here to bash, speak ill of or otherwise of my family. I share these things because they are the experiences I have had, unfortunately, they have not been positive or life-affirming. I love my family, My family is just not healthy for me or each other. I’m sure there are many of you out there that can relate and understand this.

So…Toxic Relationships. where do we start eh?

I will start with what prompted this blog. A certain family member of mine seems to think it appropriate to send me messages around birthdays and Christmas. They have started early this year. 😀

Why is this a problem for me?

Because this individual is not an individual that is good for me to have in my life. It is a sad fact because I love them but can not have them around me. They are the type of person to seek out the negative, speak to me in ways that are demeaning and has never been emotionally supportive of me.

Over the years with this person messaging me when they do…it has brought sadness and other feelings to the surface. I have admittedly allowed this to affect me greatly and essentially ruin my birthdays and holidays.

Now Is that their fault, No.

Why?

Because I am the one that chooses how I feel and deal. I have blamed them for causing me hurt at those times and have not taken responsibility for my own self.

This is not to say you can not have feelings when situations arise, allow the feelings, just do not dwell there. It is fucking hard not to, I get that. It’s just that if we do dwell there…we will not move forward, will we?

Here are some items of action I use to help me in these situations.

  1. Embracing myself. I give myself extra love and kindness.
  2. Meditate.
  3. Process the feelings. Rage scream. Write it out and burn the pages. Speak it out in some form.
  4. Get extra support from my friends. If you have supportive family members seek them out.

I have found that a combination of these works for me. I enjoy poetry writing, meditation and talking to my friends about what is going on. I appreciate their support so much! You know who you are. 😉

But…how do we deal directly with the person. That can be difficult because of many factors. Sometimes the person just does not acknowledge the boundaries you are trying to build. Sometimes it is sheer stubbornness or even entitlement that keeps them motivated in their actions.

Here are a few actionable tips I have for dealing with this. You will see that I do not advocate sudden cutting of cords or ending of relationships. These tips are meant to help with openness between you and the person in question.

1) Keep stating your boundaries.

This might seem basic but it is important. Speak your mind and your boundaries. repeatedly. Use different words and express your needs in different ways. Hopefully, this will facilitate constructive communication.

2) State your expectations.

This is different than the last point. When I say expectations I’m talking about asking for apologies, reparations for damages done, Ect. If you have been hurt you have every right to ask for an apology and an acknowledgment of the wrongdoing. Preferably with a statement of how they intend to correct and heal the situation. This may seem like a very vulnerable thing to do. Remember though that you deserve respect and to be treated well.

3) Give full disclosure of your intent.

When communication ends up not being constructive we have to do what is healthy for us. Sadly at times, this means we must begin to limit or even cease associating with said person. So speaking your intent is important. They key is not to make it a threat. It should be a simple statement of your desire to heard, respected and loved. If these things cannot be provided, then for your health, you will have to engage in keeping distance between you and the other person.

Limiting their access to you may be enough. At this point, I would suggest getting professional help. This, we can all hope, will help with beginning the healing process between you.

4) Standing your ground.

At this point, if everything else reasonable and possible has been attempted…then stand your ground. Keep firm boundaries and do what must be done for your health and safety.

I will state right here… No matter what suggestions I give here..you must do what you feel is best for you. These are just some things I have learned while dealing with my toxic person. If you are in any serious danger then get yourself gone from that environment…immediately. Do not stay in a situation that will lead to your being seriously abused in any way. You are worth so much more

If you are in any serious danger then get yourself gone from that environment…immediately. Do not stay in a situation that will lead to your being seriously abused in any way. You are worth so much more than that. You do not deserve to be treated with anything less than respect and care.

I want to send out to you my love and support. You are stronger then you might realize at this moment. You are of value and worth…so demand to be treated that way. Do not settle for less than love and respect from every person in your life.

Brightest Blessing to you all.

Bree

November Cartoscopes!

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My lovely Readers welcome to November’s Cartoscopes.

What a lovely October just past…the earth is slowly going to sleep. Do you feel it? I know I do. That feeling of wanting to fold myself inwards and seek my spirit and get to know her after all the sun and energy and growth over the past year. What a journey it has been!

Let us look at the cards, shall we? As always…I pull a card for each sign and present to you the message that comes through. Please find your Sun. Moon and Ascendant signs below and see what the universe has to tell you!

I will be using the gorgeous Sacred Rebels Oracle cards this month. I think they suit the time of year we are in here in the northern hemisphere. 😀

I hope you enjoy each message.

May you all be blessed! 

Bree

Aries: What You Want, Wants You.

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Dear Aries, Don’t you know yet that manifestation is one of your superpowers? Whether it be positive, negative or somewhere in between…you manifest the shit out life. You might not even know you’re doing it. It is all in the mind and heart. Time to open your eyes and take a look around, you will see what you have caused to come into your life. The proof is there before you. Is it what you expected? is it what you want? Answer those questions, Aries. When you do, you will be able to direct your manifesting superpower as you wish.

Taurus: The Word Wants To Be Written

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Words are like stones. When thrown into the waters of our consciousness they cause ripples. They effect change, they cause others to see things in different shades and shapes. Sweet Taurus, You have many words to share. Please share them. You don’t have to write a book and publish it…just share your words in the ways you are comfortable with. Journal, blog, even in 140 character tweets…it does not matter. You have wisdom garnered from experience that could be beneficial for those who read your words.

Gemini: Legacy Of Light

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Gemini, Your ancestors are speaking. Do you hear them? They want to share with you their light and wisdom. Even our progeny has pieces of insight to share. The generations are cyclical and connected through spirit, the words of children can be some of the most profound and heart-affecting. When we listen to the family spirit and glean from its collective experience, we will be changed. Are you ready for change Dear Gemini?

Cancer: Bring It Into Form

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Our emotions can be quite formless and fly like the wind. This can cause some confusion within ourselves. We can’t quite grasp what may be triggering us…but we feel it sharply. Lovely Cancer, bring it all to the surface. Let your emotions break through and become what they need to be. You will be taken on a journey, probably a difficult one, but you will come to the end. At the end will be what you need to know. This knowledge will strengthen you.

Leo: Softly, Softly, The Tender Touch.

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Leo, Be gentle with yourself this month. Tears may flow but they will be healing. Your intuitive powers will bring you to places in your shadow that may be hard to tread. You are a badass Leo so you can handle it. Allow your mind to expand and see where your intuition leads you. Be soft with yourself when you hit walls or information that is hard to process. Don’t force it but don’t run from it either. Gently and lovingly hold space for yourself as you would someone you cared greatly for. This is the most precious kind of self-love.

Virgo: She Feels, She Knows.

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Virgo Darling, it is time to stop ignoring the feelings you are being presented with. You know whats what. Don’t doubt yourself by tossing your intelligence to the side. Embrace the fact that your observation and empathic nature are showing you something very important. Address the facts. Stay firm in your stance and opinion. Don’t let anyone tell you that you don’t know what you’re talking about. You do. Be brave. Be courageous. Be you.

Libra: Sacred Fool.

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You are not the puppet Poppet. You are the controller of your own fate. Don’t feel that way right now? Then it is time to strip things bare, get naked with yourself and look at why you feel so powerless. You are not here in this reality to entertain others, you are here to please yourself and do as you damn well want. So be the free loving and spontaneous fool this month Libra. Find your joy, find your daring, find your strings and cut them.

Scorpio: What Do You Feel?

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Perspective is everything, isn’t it? We have been given the blessing of free will and decision making. What is it that drives those choices? Is it how we have been trained to perceive the world, our own little bubble of existence or is it conscious choices? I encourage you to think deeply about this, weight what your choices up to know have been. See the patterns governing your decision making. If you do not like what you see…get in there and change it.

Sagittarius: Inner Trust.

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There is within a feeling, an energy, that we just can’t explain. We sometimes call it intuition, gut instinct, a mother’s knowing…but it is there. It is that surety we feel, a firm knowing that comes on us. Don’t ignore this Sagittarius. Trust in yourself. Know that your feelings are rarely wrong so act on them with trust, wisdom, and respect for all involved…including yourself.

Capricorn: Shock Of The New.

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Watch out for something out of the blue Capricorn! New developments within and without may take you by surprise this month. Maybe you will find growth where you did not expect to see it. Inspiration? a major possibility. Finding your personal expression and courage to face a situation you have been avoiding, it is in the cards. No matter what may come, and it may challenge you, it will be all good things in the end.

Aquarius: Against The Grain.

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Time to pop that bubble Aquarius. You have been swimming in your comfort zone way to long. Emotions of self-doubt and possibly anxiety have held you back from going where you wanna go. Cut that shield you have surrounded yourself with down and step forward. Take on a new skin. One that will walk with you as you go against what is comfortable for you. This skin is a new perspective, a new way of expression and thinking…it is empowerment. Going from pure feeling and reaction to thinking and responding can be overwhelming. Be assured you have the ability to do this.

Pisces: Follow Your Own Rhythm.

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The rebel inside wants to dance Baby! Source that music inside you and start stepping. You will find your joy and peace when you move with your own music. Your music may clash with an other’s. Do not let this stop you. those people simply do not appreciate your personal genre. Keep shaking your ass and jiving to life, you will find those who resonate with you. When you do…invite them to dance.

Finding Your Rhythm

Weekly Reading for Oct 29th- Nov 4th.

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Dear Ones,

It is Samhain season, one of my favourite times of year. I love the cooler weather, the changing leaves and the cozy nights indoors.

I also enjoy the energy around this sacred time. It is a time of change and transition. The earth is showing us her rhythms and cycles in a colourful show. She is beginning her long sleep after all the energy used during spring and summer. She needs to rest and gain strength again.

We can learn a lot from Mamma Earth. We all have cycles and natural rhythms that are unique to us. We do not always follow those rhythms though do we?

We get so caught up in our daily lives that we forget ourselves. We forget we are creatures of this earth and need to look inward to see what makes us healthy, happy and centered. Where have we been expending our energies that we no longer need to be? our we worrying or distracted by things that no longer matter or is not actually our shit to deal with?

Let us change that. Take some time in the near future to sort through this. Find your inner self again and adjust your spirit to tick with your natural rhythm. Try meditation, exercise, pulling a tarot/oracle card and thinking deeply about it or anything else that works to ground and centre you personally.

I use meditation as my means of grounding. I am what I call an active meditator. I find it hard to just sit. I use mala beads and repeat mantras and affirmations that feel good at that particular moment. If I am needing to ground I’ll use mantras like..

“I am safe.”
“I am calm.”
“I am loved.”
“I am connected.”

I usually pull a card and find that a mantra will come to me as I look at it. It is always spot on to. Gotta love tarot and oracle cards for that reason. They really are a great tool for connecting to our subconscious.

Below, I have a Tarot/Oracle card spread for you. This spread will bring you to a knowledge of where you need to centre/ground, where your energies are going and how to redirect them to better purpose.

What is Mamma Earth telling you right now? Where are your energies being spent right now?What changes are crucial for you to make so you can spend those energies in a healthier manner?Ho

I would love to hear from those who try this spread. I love throwing spreads and gleaning wisdom from what the cards tell me. I’d love to hear about your experiences. Please comment below!

I wish for you all a blessed Samhain/Halloween/All Hallows Eve season! 

Now I am off to do a Samhain ritual with my BFF from Steller Tarot. Love that girl and we are going to have so much fun. I’ll share pictures on my social media and here, so keep an eye out. 😀 

Bree

#MeToo

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Hello Dear Ones,

Recently on social media there was a campaign that went viral. The #metoo was all over the place and it was quite epic in my opinion. Some felt it was amazing, like myself.

Some where triggered by it. For that I feel empathy. It was a trigger for me as well. It was also empowering for me. My love and support to those who felt scared, scarred, possibly threatened by the idea of stating Me Too, on your healing journey.

Some others thought this campaign was started by Alissa Milano. If fact it was not. The Me Too Movement was created by sexual assault survivor Tarana Burke in 2006. It is her years of work that has just come to my attention,and many others, with this recent viral hashtag. I could get into the whole famous white woman tweets and the work of a black woman is finally acknowledged issue…But I will not at this time. Not because I don’t have thoughts about it..I don’t feel equipped to do the subject justice. I hope to be more educated in the future.

I do want to direct you to a great article that will give you Tarana Burke’s history and story..

Washington Post about Tarana Burke

Please read it. She is inspiring on so many levels.

So why am I mentioning it…?

Because this is something that needs to be talked about.

I was one that posted #metoo on my social media. I watched at many of my friends posted this hashtag. It was shocking and not at the same time.

How prevalent this is in our society. How normal.

The normalcy is what is most disturbing. How we take it in stride and go “yup. Just an other day in the life.”

Let us make this less normal. Less accepted by bringing this out into the light. Share your stories. Don’t allow them to fester in the darkness. Share your wounds and allow yourself to heal while you help another purge and heal.

I would like to share with you my story so you know I understand. #metoo

My first memory of being seen as something to be owned and sexualized was when I was in elementary school. It was one of my Dad’s friends. I don’t remember his name, but I remember his face. He would call me wife and invite me into his room(he was staying with us for some reason that I do not know). I do not remember anything physical happening…but I remember his looks.

A few years later, after some incidents between my Mother and Father, my Mother accused me of taking my Father’s affections. It was a dark night of the soul for her I think…but it still caused me to question my worth and self. I look back on that memory and can forgive her because there is a significant piece of information I retained from that encounter. She was reading a book about childhood sexual assault. A few days before this…she had freaked out at my step-Grandma because I had been left alone with my Grandfather…I over heard the discussion. My Mother had been abused by my Grandfather. #HerToo

Then into high school…So many stories from high school! There are to many to list and detail here.

As I graduated from High School I was kicked out of my house because “Your an Adult now…”

I was lost and had no idea what to do. I clung to the first person that showed me any care. His name was Pete. We lived on the streets, he used me and abused me in a multitude of ways. I was raped repeatedly by those around me during my time in that situation.

It was an absolutely horrific time in my life. It lasted 2 years. Maybe not as long as some…but enough to do severe damage. It took me years to heal from that…I continue to heal to this day.

Let us band together and stand up, speak out and #saytheirname , Express #metoo to those who open up about their assaults. Let us make this less “normal” and teach what this really is…an invasion of a persons body, mind and spirit. Let us continue to fight for healing.

I would like to help with the healing in this world. In this vein I have set up an Etsy option for this purpose. It is a charitable reading called the Warriors Cry. This is an empowering reading and I love doing them for people.

Each purchase of this reading will be 100% donated to the Anna Davis Transition Society in Chilliwack, BC. If you would like to know more about this organization please go here..

Anna Davis Transition Society

If you would like to help me contribute to this and do your small part in helping others to heal, please book a reading here..

Warrior’s Cry: Charitable Tarot Reading

I want anyone who is reading this to know…

I am here for you. I am a shoulder to lean your head on and speak to if you need it. Hit me up with a message via my social media if you don’t feel you have anyone else to talk to. I will talk to you. No judgements, just support.

I hope that in some small way I have leant you, Dear Reader, some support and strength by sharing this blog.

May love and healing be with you all,

Bree

Flowing into Vulnerability

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Vulnerability.

What a fucking scary word!

I’ve been thinking a lot about being vulnerable recently. It makes me think about the Nine of Swords card in the tarot. The anxiety, the fear and terror. This all is intimately connected to being vulnerable. Especially when one has a background of abuse or neglect.

For me being vulnerable is a very hard thing to be. It means I have to continue to let down my walls of “screw you” that pop up to protect me. It has been hard for me but so much a valuable learning experience. I am very thankful for this…but damn those sleepless nights. I plan to keep going though and that is the key.

Even though I’m really feeling the 9 of Swords energy right now…I am also feeling the Ace of Wands energy.

That feeling of passion, creativity and boldness. It is a spark in me that has always been there…and I want to feed it. I want that spark to become a fire, a raging life that is fuelled by being vulnerable and not giving a damn. I want it to be like when I was a child and had not learned to fear yet. What a beautiful gift that spark is. Do you feel it? I hope you do! Grab it…let yourself be infused with that fire!

You see for me, I cloak my vulnerability in detachment.

Let me explain. As an older child I learnt to remove my feelings and place them in a mental box. Hidden away and not felt. To feel was scary and it hurt. If I had emotional reactions I was told to stop and grow up. So to me being an adult meant not feeling, or at least…not showing it. To be vulnerable was a way to pain and further damage.

I have learnt over the years an important truth from all this…

hiding only leads to loneliness and depression. Anxiety over the possibility that one has shared to much of oneself only causes one to be isolated. This is so damaging to a species that thrives on community and connection. It is damaging to us individually and collectively.

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The Ace of Wands energy will give us the inspiration and the boldness to be vulnerable in the face of fear. Let us burn away the reservations we have. Throw it to flames and see what the smoke inspires in us.

All the Aces have special gifts for us to utilize in our journey to healthy vulnerability.

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The Ace of Pentacles gives a feeling of solidity and safety, like a fully opened root chakra.

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The Ace of Cups helps with open expression and release of emotions attached to our fears and protected pieces of ourselves.

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The Ace of Swords grants us the ability to see clearly, cut through the shit and get to the meat of the matter at hand.

All the Aces are beautiful Shadow Work partners. Their energies will help us to be more in our bodies, feelings and minds. We must be in touch with our selves to process and allow openness to happen in beautiful healing ways. I highly suggest grabbing an ace and meditating with it. See where your spirit takes you and what wisdom you can glean from your focus on your chosen Ace.

Here is a easy formula to get you started on meditation if you do not already have a practice in place.

1) Get your self a quiet and comfortable place to sit or lay down.

2) Get your chosen card and focus on it for a few minutes. Memorize how it looks and imagine what it’s textures feel like. place yourself in the picture if you like.

3) Close your eyes. allow your mind to relax. don’t worry about clearing your mind and having no thoughts…that is pretty much impossible. Just relax. let the thoughts come and go as they please. Gently Direct your thoughts towards the card you have chosen. pay attention to the feelings and thoughts that come to you. When you feel an important thought or feeling has come to you…explore it. Gently ask it questions like Why, How, Who ect. See where this leads you.

4) Do this for as long as you chose. Please be gentle with yourself. There is no need to force anything. If nothing comes to you the first time let it be. Try again at an other time.

Being vulnerable can feel very overwhelming, but if we love ourselves through the process…we will come out of it with more confidence. We will learn great things about ourselves…more than we imagined. We will see how much we are loved in the world…if only we allow ourselves to be open and expressive with those around us.

My love to you all,

Bree

October 2017 Cartoscopes!

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Hello Dear Readers! 

I am pleased to give you October’s Cartoscopes. 😀 As with all my Cartoscopes, these are meant to be quick and sweet. My mode of operation is the same with these as with all my readings. I meditate and ask my guides to connect with me so that I may give you what spirit wants you to recieve as a message. 

I hope these little gems of inspiration with help you along your paths for October. May it be a blessed month for you all. 

Much love, 

Bree

PS: For those of you who may want to know…The deck I used it The Wheel othe Year Tarot. It was created by Maria Caratti. 

Aries: Princess Of Wands

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Fiery Aries. Opening ones heart to the future is paramount this month Aries. The future is indeed bright. Allow yourself to vanquish your fears over what may be and be your fiery self. The pricks and scratches you may receive are worth the effort of saying “Fuck it…I’m doing it.”

Remember…your an Aries…nothing can keep you caged for long.

Taurus: Queen of Swords

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Dear Taurus. Beware of cutting your own throat. In your anger or frustration you may lose your sense of logic and common sense. Keep a cool head in the coming month. Look at everything around you with open eyes, without judgement or preconceived ideas. Allow yourself to see they whole picture not just what you want to see.

In doing this you will not cause yourself or others hurt that could otherwise have been avoided.

Gemini: Ace of Chalices

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Beautiful Gemini. We sometimes hold on to our unique ways of feeling and expression because of fear. We hold ourselves in a frozen state and feel protected as a result.

Now is the time to thaw. Allow your heart and mind to warm up to the world around you. Let your protections melt and flow away, releasing the chill you have been clinging to. Your personal perception of the world will look so much brighter and vivid as a result.

Cancer: Princess Of Chalices

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Dear Cancer. New and exciting feelings are on the horizon. Allow yourself to be open to the newness that is approaching. Now is the time to connect strongly with your guides and have them close. They will be very instrumental in helping you navigate through the new paths these emerging feelings will take you down. Walk with confidence and grace, you got the skills and backup to do so.

Leo: 9 of Swords

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Dear Leo. Anxiety is a bitch…it can feel like it is attaching you from all sides. Leo, you are kick ass and can manage this. The anxiety that can feel overwhelming comes from feeling vulnerable. Embrace that vulnerability. Do not harden yourself to protect your heart. Receive the wisdom that comes from feeling and being alive.

Fire signs are so dynamic, we can flare up and then die down very quickly…so those times we rage forth in confidence can feel amazing…and then in the afterglow…we feel the anxiety and fear. That is where one must be concious of not becoming hardened.

Virgo: 7 of Swords

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Stay your course Virgo. There are many things in your life that are going to cause a disturbance in your flow. Make sure you are aware of them and take measures to keep them from taking you down the wrong path. You know where you want to go so keep stepping along the cobbles that will get you there.

Libra: 10 Of Pentacles

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You have been working very hard lately Libra. It is time to rest and look at all your efforts and the payouts. There are times when we work extremely hard and see very little…but there is always some pay for our efforts. Look for the good in all the hard work. Look for supportive people to talk to if you find yourself feeling down and out. Friends and family can give a lift to your spirits through love and community.

Scorpio: 5 of Swords

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Dearest Scorpio. Aggression is the road to sadness. You will come upon times when you want to rage. This is natural. Your vengeful and angry thoughts will swirl and surround you. This to is natural. The key here is to show some control over those thoughts. Lashing out in heated fury is not going to accomplish anything. Showing some mercy and kindness towards those we are clashing with will help with constructive communication. This communication will help further relations and develop understanding. You will find peace and calm when keeping this in mind.

Sagittarius: 2 of Cups

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Beautiful Sagittarius. This month is one to watch for misunderstandings between you and the ones you love. Being open with those closest to you is going to be paramount. Keep your lines of communication open, don’t shut down. Express your love and express your feelings about whatever is concerning you. We all go through times where we want to closet ourselves…but that does not help anything. Direct and naked words are needed to find the support/help or reassurance we desire.

Capricorn: 2 of Wands

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Dear Capricorn. Growth comes after following our inspirations. Is there something you have been thinking about lately? Take that seed and plant it. Give it the tending it needs. After a little time you will see it begin to grow. You might find that there will be those around you who may poo poo on your efforts…ignore them. Keep those who support you around and ask for their assistance if needed. You will see the rewards of your energies. Keep pushing.

Aquarius: Princess of Swords

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Dear Aquarius. What are you searching for? Are you looking for the facts or just what you want to find? Before you go ahead and proclaim your opinions, be sure of what you are saying. Have both eyes open and a clear mind when confronting the issues at hand. Remember words are weapons. The problem with words though? The damage done with them can’t be truly undone.

Pisces: 9 of Wands

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Hard working Pisces! Your time is close at hand! all the effort and patience you have put into your projects/family/friends/employment…are going to come to fruition. It is almost time for the harvest. Know that your guides are with you and supporting you. Keep moving and keep working Pisces…the end is near.

I see Hope: The Empress

Today I am extremely happy to be writing about the Empress…She is a lovely loving archetype.

This series of blogs is about how I see hope in the tarot cards. Hope is a beautiful feeling and one of the most powerful emotions we can feel. With the Empress, she represents the central axis of hope. She IS hope itself. The Empress is the Venus…the woman of love and hope. She is very dear to me, this archetype has followed me since childhood and has been a protector. I did not have a name for her then but I knew I could always call on her. 

The Empress is hope in the sense that she brings life. She is the creative force we see in the world. In the depths of winter, it is she who gives the animals the hope of a new spring. When we each have a shitty day, week, month or year…it is that element of hope she plants in our hearts that keeps us going. It drives us to take one more step…even when we don’t see the point of it. 

Hope is the energy that will cause an individual to rise up from their depression. It is a form of self-love. I know that when I am spiraling into a depression or a bout of high anxiety, Hope is what brings me out of it and I am able to function again. Don’t let your hope die, let it be the spark that brings you light when you need it most.

People in romantic relationships can also access hope, to heal the wounds we all inevitably cause each other. Larger groups of individuals can come together and put their hope into a melting pot and use its energies to create change where they see change needs to be made.

Her youthful exuberance entices us to joy and the spreading of our hearts. Giving pieces of our love to all around us. 

One can use her energies for a boost when hope seems hard to hold onto. Below is a tarot spread you can throw to help you in this.

First…find the Empress card in your deck. Place her in the middle of your space. Next, place the four cards you pull around her as shown in the picture below. Meditate on the questions and the corresponding card. Open yourself to any messages being given to you. 😀 

Next, place the four cards you pull around her as shown in the picture below. Meditate on the questions and the corresponding card. Open yourself to any messages being given to you. 😀 

Then meditate on the questions and the corresponding card. Open yourself to any messages being given to you so that hope can be increased in your heart. 😀 

  1. Why has my hope diminished?
  2. How can I love myself into more hope?
  3. What do I need to do to remove the factors that diminish my hope?
  4. What fuel do I need to feed my spark of hope…and create a fire?

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I wish you all an abundance of hope,

Bree